My insurance (Aenta) is requiring me to do 4 months of medically supervised weight loss, along with 2 visits to a nutritionist - all of which will be done at the True Results center. I have been wondering something over the last few days, and if any of you who stumble upon this have any input, please share! I am wondering whether or not the insurance company actually wants to see me lose weight or not over these next few months. You see, and perhaps it is the obsessiveness in me, my thoughts are this whole thing is a double-edged sword. If I lose weight over the next four months, then I worry that they will decline me reasoning that I have been able to lose weight on my own over the last few months and don't need the Lap Band. On the flip side, I worry that if I don't lose weight, they will decline me reasoning that I won't be able to stick to the new Lap Band lifestyle and changes and therefore should not get one. What do I do?? The thing is, like most Bandsters, I can lose weight for a couple of weeks or months... but I cannot keep it off. Every single time I have dieted or "changed my lifestyle" over the last decade, I have gained back all weight lost and then some. My first time dieting I was 249 lbs. I joined Weight Watchers and got down to 180 lbs in about 7 or so months. Then I gained it all back, plus more. Today I am around 308-ish lbs. Sometimes I use this as my rationale not to diet - I tell my self if I diet, I'll lose but then end up gaining even more back so I really shouldn't diet. How sick is that?
I need this Lap Band. I really, really need it. I know in my heart of hearts that it is going to make all the difference in the world, that it's going to save my life. After all, this truly is a matter of life and death. I want to grow old with my husband and watch my three children grow up. I want to be active with my children now, while they are still so young and actually want me to do things with them. I need that restriction that Lap Band offers. They say you won't want to eat, you won't even think of eating - I need that!
So, what do I do? I certainly don't want to gain weight over the next few months. Of course it would be awesome to kick start my loss... but will it cost me my Band? I know I could lose some weight before the surgery, but I won't be able to keep it off. 10+ years and thousands of dollars have showed me that. I wish I had the money to pay cash if I get declined, then I wouldn't (hopefully) worry about it so much. I have been searching the internet for answers to this question, and it seems like the opinions are divided.
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